Lost four pounds

Finally I have a title for my blog post and it's one I am proud of!  I have lost four pounds! Wow, great huh? I am not sure why I am so obsessed with the scale. I know I have been losing because I feel a difference. I really am so proud of myself for walking every day. Even with my time of month, when usually I avoid everything! So there's the good news for eating right and exercising.

Today was a busy day. We went as a family to get subs at Subway and took them to the Port of Play, a big play gym and the kids ran around like crazy and Josh and I even got some fun games in with them.
So I had a turkey sub, with no cheese, added spinach and tomatoes, pickles, olives, mustard and vinegar. It was very good. We all had the baked lay chips. So all in all for fast food, not bad. My meal was under 300 calories. And I had water as usual.
Then we did a little more Xbox dancing and I tried a little of a yoga workout. But not much of it. Maybe I'll try more of it another day.

Tomorrow there is a Head Start Home Visit, which will annoy me, take up an hour of my day, sometimes more than an hour and I don't even see the point really. It's seriously a waste of my time.
Oh well, you gotta do it to have your child in Head start.

But I intend to walk for an hour and  a half tomorrow.  I also need to start working in some weight lifting as well to build up my muscles.
I have some small weights and Josh has some bigger weights downstairs.

I have realized something important today. You cannot rely on anybody else to be proud of you, you have to just be proud of yourself. And you can't rely on anybody else to be there for you when you need them. I hate to admit that, and when the person you should be able to rely on the most isn't really there for you when they are needed it is a very sad thing. I wish it weren't true and if my mom were alive today I'd have the person I need. The sad part is that these people are always around to tell you what you are doing wrong but not to praise you and encourage you when are doing right.
My sister is very good at encouragement but she doesn't live here and is always very busy.
I just need someone to talk to who gives a shit. That's what I'm getting at.
Or just realize that it's a one person battle and you are the only person who is going to give a shit! :)
To put it bluntly.
Ok, that's my rant for the day. You have to encourage yourself and motivate yourself and be proud of yourself. If you wait for others to do it you will wait forever.